I guess this is the reason I'm keeping my blog fairly private, I need a place to unload a bit. When I need to write something out to better understand it, I do it here.
I don't understand how some people do it all. I can juggle an awful lot of things, but I can't do them all well. If I'm to be honest I would say I don't think I do my best at any of them. A woman I work with told me something her dad used to say to her, which perfectly suits my situation right now "Jack of all trades, Master of none". Just two weeks ago I had a perfectly clean house, that I kept that way. I baked and cooked often. I was creating things to possibly sell or give as gifts. I was studying the Word daily, praying and worshiping often. Then I got a job. A job that isn't even super demanding of my time, and I've lost control. I was master of my house, now I'm master of none. I feel like I'm lost. It scares me that it only took that much. Just a part time job, and I feel too lazy to focus on anything else.
There are so many things I want to do better. I know I can only do all those things through Christ who strengthens me. But when I get so caught up in the one thing, I don't leave time to let Him strengthen me. He is the first thing I toss aside, and its absolutely shameful. So here's to taking it one day at a time, rearranging my priorities, and making time for the more important things in life. I hope that this time next week, I feel a little more focused, and a little more energized.
